Letters That Were Never Sent [Circa Swallowing The Pill]

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Cami DeVille I bought the hard copy at the South FM reunion show. That summer was jam packed of rocking memories. I discovered South FM a couple years after the break, but I became a Paco fan with a vengeance. I do love all the South FM guys & praise their talent, Paco is my fave. Paco has a voice that could make a everybody pregnant & a smile like the sun. Love him!! Favorite track: Falling Asleep.
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    Letters That Were Never Sent [Circa Swallowing The Pill] is a 22 track digital compilation album of demos, live, and rare recordings by SouthFM. The majority of the songs were written/recorded leading up to the release of Swallowing The Pill in 2005. A few of these songs ended up being re-recorded professionally for the actual album while others never saw the light of day, therefore these recordings are the only versions of the songs in existence.

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Track Name: Blue & Grey
collected all these words
to paint this picture for you
and try to get you to see
these words might have no worth
unless you understand that
this picture wants to be free
and I've spent all this time
in a world that chooses victims for a faceless crime
that just adds to the statistics of the hurt not seen

you never see me when I'm blue, blue, blue and grey

there's not a day gone by
that I don't see this picture
reveal itself in my head
but everyday I try
to prove to you I'm alive
though parts of me might be dead

and I've spent all this life
I'll carry the burden of a beaten wife
raped and bruised and battered by the hurt not seen

you've got to be strong and proud
don't let the loss of dignity get you down
you're more then just the flower in the field he found
silence can't overcome with a truth so loud
Track Name: Carry This Burden
you keep on spitting on my face
you pull me in with your deceiving smile's embrace

tired of looking through you
i'll find myself if you find you

they say free will its your voice
they say free will its choice

what must i do?
pick up a cross and carry this burden for you?
set myself on fire? repent all desire?
and carry this burden for you?

you keep running away. run.


what must i do?
pick up a cross and carry this burden for you?
am i coming clear? am i anywhere near to lighting
this match inside you?
is this all you know? how far would you go?
to carry this burden.

what must i do?
pick up a cross and carry this burden for you?
set myself on fire? repent all desire?
and carry this burden for you?

what must i do?
pick up a cross and carry this burden for you?
is this all you know? how far would you go?
i'll carry this burden. i'll carry this burden.
Track Name: Paper Dolls
swallow the pill they sold your father
bury your will for the sake of a dollar
understand the television
just like good americans do
bend and fold like paper dolls
sitcoms, re-runs, and talk show hosts
in this silent wake
with this quiet rage
at the turning of the century
in the twilight of our history
everyone is laughing at you
just like good americans do
Track Name: Smoking Umbrellas
Woke in my warm bed
Just in time for all the brilliant red lights
They were streaming through my half shuttered windows
Christmas lights in time with my stuttered brain waves

The door knob was glowing
All my photographs were rippled and melting
Through the walls I could hear panicked voices
They seemed to say, go back to bed there's no choices
And nowhere not burned out

The fireman calls out, we've got another smoking
Umbrella left in the hallway
And the fireman calls out, we've got another smoking
Umbrella left here

I gave no answer
To all their shouted questions, just lay back choking
Didn't want to stay but my bed was on fire
Instead of screaming, I fell back into dreamland
Blinking and sighing

The fireman calls out, we've got another smoking
Umbrella left in the hallway
And the fireman calls out, we've got another smoking
Umbrella left here

I don't wanna leave [Incomprehensible]
I never believed in what happened to [Incomprehensible]

The fireman calls out, we've got another smoking
Umbrella left in the hallway
And the fireman calls out, we've got another smoking
Umbrella left, yeah

(Words and Music by Ken Andrews and Greg Edwards)
Track Name: So That I Could Rescue You
i can't fix the leak you have in your ceiling
but I can keep placing down buckets for rain
I'd consider floating for hours
across the atlantic sea
so that I could rescue you
so that you might rescue me
but i'm just killing
it's harder when two have this feeling
even harder when one carries this pain
I'd consider floating for hours
across the atlantic sea
so that I could rescue you
so that you might rescue me

but I'm just killing the time that I have left
I'm just wasting the years as they pass

it echoes in my mind
this story all too clear but I can't run away from here
cause here is not a place
here is just your face
Track Name: Dancing Like This
Underneath the universe
on her inner thigh,
just underneath her skirt
underneath the waves
something I've said before
underneath the streetlight hum
that brings me home to her back door
theres a place, we embrace
and its calling us...

So we're dancing like this
we dance and we kiss
we're dancing when we make love
underneath the streetlight hum
we're dancing like this
we dance and we kiss
we're dancing when we make love
dancing when we make love.

Just above your tallest tree
just above the treehouse and
the place where she kissed me
just across the sky
something I've said before
in between the space you look
inside to see that you are beautiful
theres a place, we embrace...

So we're dancing like this
we dance and we kiss
we're dancing when we make love
underneath the streetlight hum
we're dancing like this
we dance and we kiss
we're dancing when we make love
dancing when we make love...

And its calling us, and its calling us
and its calling us, and we're calling us
and we're calling us, and we're calling us
and we're calling us...

So we're dancing like this
we dance and we kiss
we're dancing when we make love
underneath the streetlight hum
we're dancing like this
we dance and we kiss
we're dancing when we make love
dancing when we make love...
Track Name: Just Before We Go
we made plans to have it all
chase our dreams until our lives were full
of moments that could make up for things we never saw
seemed like us against the world
seemed like us against the rules
seemed like us against repeating the same mistakes our parents made

but summer leaves give into fall
and autumn leave give into natural law
they lose their color on the ground when winter calls
they say all good things come to end
they say things break if they can't bend
because we never learned to swim...
we drowned the meaning of it all

something tells me this is the last time you and i will meet
so we'll call this day our anniversary
next year meet here and we'll celebrate upon this street
and i guess thats why they call it letting go
just before we go. right after the show.
i have to let you know. that i still miss you.

i lost my faith in god and you
cut my ties with all the friends i knew
said good bye to me and wrapped myself in blue
since even drugs can't get me through
i'm moving on i'm growing up
i'm learning there's a time to cry
and a time to not give a fuck

something tells me this is the last time you and i will meet
so we'll call this day our anniversary
next year meet here and we'll celebrate upon this street
and i guess thats why they call it letting go
just before we go. right after the show.
i have to let you know. that i still miss you.

your father never really liked me
your mom was always such a mess
and here amidst my indecision
i'll save this moment for my best
Track Name: Where Did You Go
So save your breath
for the rest of this relationship
cause it will get harder and harder
for us to breathe
and when you fall find my hand
to help you stand again
cause times will get harder
and harder than these

Where did you go
I thought I'd be the first in line to know
you know that I have trouble letting go
and when the world has taken
everything you have to give
I promise I will never say
I told you so

We'll prove two people can stand
when everybody else is falling apart
in a world that keeps ending
I know you and I could
make a new start
my days go by.
Track Name: One More Day
life can be so insecure
so difficult to leave things off the table
its like we're unable
to leave the past behind us
so it can not find us
bind us
remind us
of baggages we carry and some we bury

maybe this is love
because it seems to feel this way
and i can't go on one more
without those three words that you say

i can be so insecure
i can bring my problems to this table
making me unable
to leave whats left behind me
so it can't confine me
define me
and blind me
so baggages i carry i can bury

maybe this is love
because it seems to feel this way
and i can't go on one more
without those three words that you say
Track Name: Falling Asleep
i'm unfamiliar with you
you're unfamiliar with me
these unfamiliar feelings
this changes everything
seems like the strangest things build form to fall apart
but sometimes the strangest things can re-align the heart
there's no misunderstanding
its classic poetry
you send the signs that break the silence of my heart subconsciously
between the sun and moon thats spinning in my sky
engaging parallels between both you and i

feels like i'm falling asleep
but the wheels keep turning
a candle burning
my mind still yearning
if i'm falling awake?
cause i'm drawn to you like gravity
like gravity you're draw to me

with these morning eyes we unravel
all the possibilities change brings
that we might discover ourselves
in hopes to simplify this mystery
cause if we stay in this moment we will lay down with our fears


feels like i'm falling asleep
but the wheels keep turning
a candle burning
my mind still yearning
if i'm falling awake?
cause i'm drawn to you like gravity
like gravity you're draw to me


and we can't control what might possible bring this change
and this poetry is engaging this unraveling
breaking the silence of paralleled gravity
breaking the silence
breaking the silence
breaking the silence

feels like i'm falling asleep
but the wheels keep turning
a candle burning
my mind still yearning
if i'm falling awake?
cause i'm drawn to you like gravity
like gravity you're draw to me
Track Name: Human Nature
celebrate this life of message
a chance to be part of the whole
its human nature to be part of something wholly
celebrate this life as one
as one

and what we can't see is what we still believe
its human nature to be part of something wholly
part of something

celebrate this life of message
a chance to be part of the whole
its human nature to belong to something wholly
celebrate this life as one
as one

and what we can't see is what we still believe
its human nature to be part of something wholly
part of something

part of something wholly

where is your holy man?
go ask him where he stands
interpret words of man
then change them up instead


and what we can't see is what we still believe
its human nature to be part of something wholly
part of something wholly
Track Name: Before The World Will End
april showers bring the mayflies
collecting round the porch light
echoing the twilight
another day will dawn here
this city sleeps in silence
the writings on the wall
the distance between streetlights
I don't know where you are
or how you sleep at night
if you can sleep at all
under this quiet sky
intense anticipation cuts this deaf calm like a razor blade
and no one seems to notice
no one seems to notice

something is near
approaches children sleeping
a light upon these delicate eyes
with our ears against the ground
because the war is in our minds
the sun and moon are trading places
and no one seems to notice
we've only a few moments
before the world will end

I don't know where you are
or how you sleep at night
if you can sleep at all
under this quiet sky
we've only a few moments
before the world will end
and no one seems to notice
no one seems to notice
and when I think of you I still have regrets
the things we never said
the things we never did
If I could change the past then the things I said
I'd have said them more
I would have said it more
I love you
Track Name: Red Eyes
daylight begins when my day ends
in between the weeks, the months, the years, that pass me by
and my life has changed but you've stayed the same

and if nice guys finish last
i'll never have the chance
to share with you this dance
to win you with romance
and if nice guys finish last
life's over way too fast
and damn this circumstance
when nice guys finish last

so let my mother know
that if i lost her life i'd never grow to be the best man that i can
cause there's things you let go and then there's things you hold onto to and never ever let them go again

and if nice guys finish last
i'll never have the chance
to share with you this dance
to win you with romance
and if nice guys finish last
life's over way too fast
and damn this circumstance
when nice guys finish last

i'll never have the chance
to share with you this dance
to win you with romance
and damn this circumstance

and if nice guys finish last
i'll never have the chance
to share with you this dance
to win you with romance
and if nice guys finish last
life's over way too fast
and damn this circumstance
when nice guys finish last
Track Name: Honestly (Acoustic)
honestly, how can we swim when we tread above water?
and honestly, what doesn't kill us will make stronger
and honestly, where do i stand on either side or the deep in between?

and say you'll stay this city sleeps in silence without you
and say you won't leave i'm lost without the echoes of your laughter

honestly, what happens when one hand is washing the other?
honestly, like waiting in line one excuse after another
and honestly, where do i stand on either side or the deep in between?

and say you'll stay this city sleeps in silence without you
and say you won't leave i'm lost without the echoes of your laughter
Track Name: Save Me
i thought you'd cast aside your vision
in hopes that you'd might feel the same
and when it was you who left me here
to swallow all the blame

i thought you'd cast aside your vision...

so why can't you just come save me
come save me come and save me from myself

i thought you'd cast aside your vision
and you'd cast aside your blame
in hopes that you might feel the same

come save me

so why can't you just?
Track Name: Evolution
this is my new resignation
cause i believe there's something more life has to find
this is my whole revelation
cause i believe theres something more i have to find

to fall away from grace

these are the moments that break through the silence
primal complications carried from our history
this is evolution and the monkeys abiding
this is what its like when you got four walls colliding

this is my new resignation
cause i believe there's something more life has to find
this is my whole revelation
cause i believe theres something more i have to find

to fall away from grace

these are the moments that break through the silence
primal complications carried from our history
this is evolution and the monkeys abiding
this is what its like when you got four walls colliding
this is the knife and the back that it stabs
this the blood and the red on its hand
the earth and the moon and the stars and the sun
and this is what its like when it goes on and on
and on and on and on and on

these are the beds where the clueless are sleeping
this is the house that jack can never stop building
linear equation where the axis is shifting
can we change the bricks that we can never stop lifting

these are the hands and the strings and the puppets
monopolize the country for the sake of the profits
this is evolution and the monkeys abiding
this is what is like when you got four walls colliding

these are the moments that break through the silence
primal complications carried from our history
this is evolution and the monkeys abiding
this is what its like when you got four walls colliding
this is the knife and the back that it stabs
this the blood and the red on its hand
the earth and the moon and the stars and the sun
and this is what its like when it goes on and on
and on and on and on and on
Track Name: Don't Trust The Others
your blood flows
the pharaohs and profits
to confess all the things that you said
you brought them the secrets
unlocked doors then closed them
all the thing that you said

this is not the reason i came here
this is not what you said

don't trust the others
they kill one another
you can't trust your neighbor
you can't trust them
when they kill one another

to withstand against time's test
your patience
your progress
all the things in your head
you brought them the secrets
unlocked doors then closed them
all the things in your heard

this is not the reason i came here
this is not what you said

don't trust the others
they kill one another
you can't trust your neighbor
you can't trust them
when they kill one another
Track Name: Blue & Grey (Demo)
collected all these words
to paint this picture for you
and try to get you to see
these words might have no worth
unless you understand that
this picture wants to be free
and I've spent all this time
in a world that chooses victims for a faceless crime
that just adds to the statistics of the hurt not seen

you never see me when I'm blue, blue, blue and grey

there's not a day gone by
that I don't see this picture
reveal itself in my head
but everyday I try
to prove to you I'm alive
though parts of me might be dead

and I've spent all this life
I'll carry the burden of a beaten wife
raped and bruised and battered by the hurt not seen

you've got to be strong and proud
don't let the loss of dignity get you down
you're more then just the flower in the field he found
silence can't overcome with a truth so loud
Track Name: America
we were living in america
i was living life for me
looking forward to the sky scrapers dream makers
drifting towards the city sea

we were living america
they say that the freest place to be
but i haven't seen my freedom since she said good bye to me

i thought life would be easier if you were gone
and maybe i was wrong

i will spend the rest of my life
trying to build a dream thats never been built before
and if it takes the ret of my life
i would give anything to know that i'm not dreaming alone

we were bathing in the texas sun
the sky was blue our love was green and life had just begun
but the grass is always greener
i said i didn't mean to let my life take over me

i thought life would be easier if you were gone
and maybe i was wrong

i will spend the rest of my life
trying to build a dream thats never been built before
and if it takes the ret of my life
i would give anything to know that i'm not dreaming alone

i thought life would be easier if you were gone
but then again life was easier when we just held on
and maybe i was wrong

i will spend the rest of my life
trying to build a dream thats never been built before
and if it takes the ret of my life
i would give anything to know that i'm not dreaming alone
Track Name: Looks Impossible
when will i hold the hand?
the hand inside of you

so our palms come together
and pray that we will shine

one more day, to separate the difference
one more sidewalk, to find out where it ends

and she says, "it looks impossible."
but its not easy when she's all over my head

i want to see the sunlight from this lonely painted room
i want to turn beside me while i sleep and know i'm not alone

and she says, "it looks impossible."
but its not easy when she's all over my head

and maybe, maybe she'll leave the light on

in the right time and the place
with the right words and His right grace
in the right time and the right place with the right one

and she says, "it looks impossible."
but its not easy when she's all over my head